The little one.

{ A letter to Brynn }

You have completely taken over my heart. To be honest, it took us awhile to get here. Not that I never loved you. I have always loved you. But connecting has ben hard solely because I have your sister to focus on as well. I questioned myself a lot in the beginning. Wondering if I was giving you enough snuggles and kisses. Hoping you were content and happy.

Over the last few weeks, you have started to show more of the person you will become. You are not a fussy baby at all. You fight naps but instead of fussing, you push the paci out of your mouth then decide you want it back and so we play the paci game A LOT. :)

You have had some issues sleeping at night. You were doing pretty well then you got thrush. Then you got a cold and got thrush again. But we are almost done with both and I am sure things will get better then. You have started smiling and cooing and it is just the cutest thing.

Sometimes, I wish I could spend all day laying the floor with you talking about things.

Here are some recent photos:

Photos

Little Miss

{A Letter for Brynn}

We are getting our night time routine down this week. All but one day, you only woke up once between 10 and 6am. I tried to have your dad wake up with you but he really struggled to get you back to sleep so I ended up waking up anyway. When I first start rocking you, your little body is very tense. Every couple of minutes you will let out a high-pitched squeak and relax a bit. I am not sure what this is, gas moving through your belly or sleep moving in. Then you will close your eyes for a long time. But your body is still tense. In the beginning, I thought you were asleep, but it was a trick! Now I wait for your whole body to melt into my chest, like a bag of sand. Only then can I lay you in your bassinet. You truly are a puzzle. But I love that I know so much about you after only a month. Even though it has been a hard couple weeks, it is amazing to watch you grow. Today you rolled from your belly to your back. At four weeks. You are so strong. I cannot wait to see what this year brings.

Here you are lifting your head so high.

So Proud

{A letter to Elle}

I am so proud of the way you are handling being a big sister. You love Brynn. When I go into get you in the morning, you say "Baby Bin?" and I tell you she is out in the living room and you run out to give her kisses. Brynn has quite the loud screech and when we are up for midnight feedings, I hear you saying "Baby Bin!" over the monitor. I feel bad that she wakes you up but that screech travels in our tiny house.

Tonight, you and I headed out for some time together. We went to these local trails that you love and I am pretty sure you walked/ran a mile.

Sometimes, I miss just us. Because you are so wonderful and easy :) I have this weird urge to want to climb into your crib with you. To have it just be us and snuggle in the dark.

Here are some pictures from this evening: