Sunday, October 31, 2010

To the City!

We had a fun Halloween in the City. I will post the Halloween photos tomorrow.

You and your Grandmom:

Swinging with Dad:

At the toy store:

Friday, October 29, 2010

Thursday, October 28, 2010


You are so beautiful. Sometimes it just takes my breath away. How did I get so lucky?

Ok so I showed this photo to your dad and he said, "she looks like a chubby boy." Hmmm....

Saturday, October 23, 2010


22. That is the number of days a month that you, me and your dad hang out pretty much all day. As I wrote to you before, I started a part time work schedule. I work from 6-10am Monday through Friday. I get up early everyday (the downside) and you and your dad hangout until I get home about about 10:15am. I love this because both your dad & I feel really fulfilled. He loves his morning with you, but when I get home, he is free to go the gym, work in the yard or we all just snuggle around in the living room playing on the floor. SInce I started this schedule, neither of us has felt burned out at all. When your dad's days to work come around (he works 48 hours with 96 hours off), I am ready for him to leave! I love him of course, but by then I am ready for some space. He gets time with the guys at work and I get mommy and me time with you. By the time your dad comes home is really missing you and cannot wait for some daddy and baby time.

I feel so lucky that this is our life. However, we have worked really hard to make things this way. When your dad was working as a resident firefighter making $500 month and I was scraping by starting out my own career, we would sometimes think it would be better if he just got a 9-5. But I remember him saying (even as a 19 year old) that he did not want his babies in daycare all day and he wanted to spend as much time with them as possible. We have been planning for this life for nearly 10 years. When we were 16 and 17, we were already planning. I know we are unique and most families do not get to spend so much time together but I hope you remember that your life is the sum total of your choices. I will work hard to help you make smart ones from the start.

Here you are with your papa. Who is absolutely crazy about you, by the way.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Two from tonight

Grey sky makes for beautiful eyes.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Needing me

You have always been a pretty independent baby. Even when you were small, you would rather snuggle on your boppy pillow than on my chest. Those times you would snuggle up on me though, pure joy.

For the past few months, you have been really independent. Wanting to try new things and always on the go. I was working full time and so we only saw each other for a few hours a day. I ached for you all day. I would call home and hear you saying "am!" (your name for me) in the background and it was like tiny spikes in my heart.

So your dad and I had a long talk and I started part-time at work. I work 6-10am Monday-Friday and feel like I have the perfect balance. You have become a lot more attached to me since this change. It feels so good to be needed by you. You reach for me, follow me all around the house and snuggle into my shoulder. I am so happy that I listened to my instincts. We both needed more of each other.

Tonight, you had a bit of trouble falling asleep. I found you standing at the side of your crib, crying into the dark. I kissed you on your soft hair and laid you back down. You grabbed my finger and popped your thumb into your mouth. I could barley see you, but your little eyes were beginning to droop. You would fall asleep and then wake up, your tiny hand searching for my finger. As soon as you found it, you drifted off again. When you were finally asleep, I stayed to watch you. It felt like the best kept secret. Listening to your peaceful breaths in the dark, knowing that all you needed tonight was your Am.

PS for readers: I found a good writing song. It is called And Then You by Greg Laswell. If anyone is looking for good inspiration.

Photo entered into the Paper Mama Challenge:
The Paper Mama

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Maybe the last sunny day for awhile...

The rain is starting to roll in but we had some pretty light the last couple of days.

Monday, October 11, 2010

It is not always easy.

You have always been a great sleeper. You started sleeping through the night at 6 weeks. However, every time you hit a milestone, your sleep is interrupted.

The latest thing you have learned how to do is stand up your crib. When I put you down for naps, you stand right up and hold onto the side and cry. At first, I was going in and helping you down but then I started getting really frustrated- for both of us. You were just waiting for me to come in. I was waiting for you to fall asleep. So I had to just leave you in there. You cry and cry, sometimes for 15 minutes but then you finally go to sleep. It has been really hard, I am not gonna lie. At night you wake up about every three hours doing this.

Just as your dad used to say when you were really small and would cry for hours for no reason, there are days I want to punt you off the front porch. (Ok, I would never punt you anywhere, but I think all mothers reach that breaking point). But then you wake up from your nap all smiles and laughs, everything is at is should be.

But man, my child. You are giving me a run for my money lately.

Friday, October 1, 2010

Um... Photo Drop # 47?

You are offically crawling. When I walk down the hall, you follow me like a little puppy. When I am sitting on the couch, you try to crawl up my leg and onto my lap. I love you more than ever.

I kinda suck at the letter part.... I just like to take time with the letters. Anywhoo! Some photos!