Letters to Little: Women

You come from a family of amazing women. Your great grandmother on my Dad's side, raised her two boys on very little income. My father went on to become a doctor, my uncle has a phd. I never really knew her husband, as he died before I was born. She passed away before your were born. She would have LOVED you. I mean obsessed with you. I just know it.

Your great grandmother owns a successful business and runs a massive tree farm. She is 77 years old and still going strong. She stepped up to raise her family when her husband died in a plane crash.

Your grandmother, my mother, is my rock. She is my best friend. The one I call when things are happy and sad. She is a Yale graduate and has worked hard to have a high status position at her hospital. She always taught your aunt and I to be able to take care of ourselves and never rely on a man, despite her strong marriage to my father. She is beautiful and one of the smartest people I know.

Your aunt has a master's degree and is about to become a mama herself. Your cousin Carter is coming in June, two months before your little sister.

Growing up, I was always very ambitious. I graduated high school with high grades and got into all the colleges I applied to. I graduated college in three years and I was working full time, living on my own at 21. Your father and I were very goal driven. He got an amazing job as a firefighter at 23, we were married and bought a house months after. I have always struggled a bit in the career department and because of the line of women I come from, I feel insecure about it. I have been working part time since you were born but I am thinking that when your sister is born, I want to take some time off and just focus on being a mom. It will be busy with both of you.

I feel like I am failing these women by making this choice. No one of them were ever stay at home moms. I am of course very secure in my relationship with your father but you just never know. I hope to do some photography sessions on the side and perhaps that will turn into something great and I know I can always go back to work. I am only 26. But it still makes me nervous to let these women down. I hope that when you are a mom or about to be a mom, you and I can discuss these things and I will never think any less of you, whatever choice you make. You have strong blood in your veins. But you also are also your own wonderful person. We will see what the future holds in August. I must say, staying home for a bit sounds mighty nice after waking up to start my work shift at 6am mon-fri. :)

Here is a picture of all us women.